Is there an age or year of your life you would re-live?

I would relive the moment of the death
Of your frail ‘love’.
The month, the day, the minute of that breath
Obscuring now the hours since you lifted
The latch above
The door guarding space wherein was sifted
Hard memories from the daily weakness
Of the muscle, of which you were the ache.
The strain goes though not the blunted bleakness
Of a heart thought true found empty and fake.
Surprised but joyed
I’m not destroyed.
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With love to survivors
Steve